My perspection towards my parents completely changed after having a long and heartbreaking discussion with my dad. I thought they have changed already. But! They turned out to be different from what we expect they would be. If my real mother is alive, i would definitely have to do the chores and all of that. But still, i will be happy. But i have to accept the fact that she died 5 years ago. Who am i to question Allah's decision? Im just a human. When ever i think about her, i will still be sad although i have to be strong. Imma fighter! Tough girls dont cry.

After my mother passed away, she had left me with my father and siblings. I thought to myself, we will make this work without a mother. Years later, my dad told me that he wanted to remarry my so call stepmother. At first we thought that she was nice and all of that. But! But! But! It turned out to be a horrendous nighmare!! Before my father remarried, i have thought about this already. This will not going to work out. I can feel it in my heart and soul that it will never going to work.

We got into a terrible fight with her. Sometimes we fought because of nonsense things like the power of using the kitchen, the tv was too loud and other stuff. What really hurts my heart is the fact that she gave us a minimum amount of money for us to spend, and gradually took our dad away from us. Besides that, we needed money the most to buy clothes for ourselves. So, me and my sister decided to make our own business. When my stepmom found out about that, she scolded me. She said theres no need to make business. But how can i stop? I have so many things to buy. I needed a new shoe for jogging and tennis. I need to buy my skincare. I needed to buy clothes. I needed to buy books to read. All of those things need MONEY! And yet, they did not even bother to ask what are our problems are. They are just too busy with their own world. To them, we are nothing. They will give us money later and then tells us to disappear. Thats my parents.

So far, it has already been a while since we went shopping. I dont normally shop. I only shop when i think i need that thing the most. I wanted to wear beautiful clothes like other girls, dont u think i have the right to buy some pretty clothes without bothering to look at the price tag? It is not like we are poor. You are very rich! Richer than any other dad in my school. But find some humanity! Im 16 years old. Not even qualified to work yet. And now you are asking me to work and pay for my own tuition fees?

I dont expect you to buy me expensive stuff. I just want you to be fair. If you cant be fair, then u dont deserve to become a parent. U dont deserve to be my parents. This world is too cruel. Its unfair. I hope god will forgive all of my sins. I didnt mean to talk bad things about my parents. But i am hurting. It hurts a lot. I have a parent that never care about me. Never care about anything.